These days are awhirl with excitement and a tinge of chaos.
I have five more sleeps until Break Forth Canada begins for me (for the registrants, you’ll have to wait for seven sleeps). This means only four workdays to get stuff done. I’m quite certain that I have way more to do than I have time to do it in. Yet I know that Break Forth will go on whether I get every detail crossed off my list or not. So I’m running on a triage philosophy – dealing with the most urgent cases, anything non-life-threatening can wait, and if something is near certain death just gently letting it go.
I have nine more sleeps until we leave for Haiti. Actually, eight, as I’m not anticipating sleep on Saturday night. Our team is taking down a bunch of Rubbermaid tubs filled with supplies. We’ve been collecting supplies for months, only to receive a list of last-minute requests from on the ground in Haiti – it’s a large list! So we’re re-thinking our plans as we prepare to pack up those bins on Sunday. My heart breaks at the prospect of leaving some supplies behind, but I can’t stand the idea of bringing items not urgently needed and not providing things that are.
My truck went into the shop yesterday, and had to stay for a sleep-over. It’s never good when the check engine light comes on. I’m pretty sure that this is a distraction tactic by the enemy. The reason I’m sure – because this problem instantly caused a tight ball of stress in my belly, it has us worrying about finances, and it’s making us feel short with each other.
So in these whirling, twirling, dizzying days, I do the only thing I know will help. I cry out to God. I ask Him to give me peace in the midst of chaos, to keep my mind clear and focussed on the tasks He needs me to accomplish, and to protect me from the enemy’s tricks and tactics. I remind Him that this was His plan to begin with – both Haiti and Break Forth, and that I fully expect Him to provide for all of our needs (even the unexpected financial one). And at any given moment, when the stress of it all threatens to overcome me, I remind myself that the Creator of Heaven and Earth is the one who’s really in control here, so I don’t need to worry.
I can’t remember a time in my life when there have been so many important things going on at once. I also can’t recall a time in my life where I’ve felt such a deep, settled, inner peace. It doesn’t make sense that I should feel peaceful right now. But that’s why I know it’s from my Abba. And I’m sure, due to the prayers of our friends and family.
Thank you for thinking of us when you go before Him these next few weeks. Each prayer is treasured by our Father and by us.
Please keep up with our team while we’re on the ground – we’ll share our highs and lows, our prayer needs, and some photos of what we’re working on. CrossRoads to Haiti, 2012
“Again, I tell you that if two of you on earth agree about anything you ask for, it will be done for you by my Father in heaven. For where two or three come together in my name, there am I with them.” ~ Matthew 18:19-20